Dinner with Harry tomorrow.  I'm too nervous for words.  I still can't believe that I found the courage to kiss him. 

I want the question settled.  I'm tired of not knowing and being nervous.  I am a strong and confident witch.  I can handle a little adult conversation, right?

Tags: harry

I am a strong and confident woman and can chase after what I want without looking like a slag.

Oh, Merlin, he doesn't think that, does he?  I kissed him and then when running off like a scared rabbit.  He must be so confused.  Should I owl him?  I'm owl him.

What do I say?

Tags: harry

Have had no luck figuring out what happened to Bob.  It's very frustrating.  Biddie is starting to lose hope, I fear, and Frank and I are losing patience. 

Bob started appearing in the village about a year ago.  At first he scared the people of Skaw even though he stayed to the outskirts of the village and they reported him to Azkaban.  The officials refused to believe the reports.  No surprise there consideringMacEvoy's attitude.  As the months went by, he started making forays into the village proper and they got used to him. 

No other Dementors have been seen.  How can they be sure?  Dementors aren't known for being distinguishable from each other.  Bit of a herd mentality, from what I can understand of them.  Bob has went against the herd.  Maybe the others found out and are punishing him?

How was he getting off Azkaban, though?  The island is surrounded by a ward that is supposed to keep them in.  Like dragons at a Reserve.  Seamus once called it aninvisible fence.

My Patronus is still not appearing.  Have tried every happy memory I have with no luck.  It is very disconcerting.

Promised Frank I would owl Harry today if we still had no leads.  Maybe he can get MacEvoy to cooperate. 

Had another dream about Harry.

I saw Seamus the other day.  He said the most awful things.  Hurtful things.  I spent the rest of the day hiding in my room.  I didn't want Gin to see that I was upset.  No doubt she would hunt down Seamus and hurt him if she knew that he'd grabbed me.

To hear him tell it, everyone he's met in London hit him.  Which has to be a pile of rubbish.  I can't really imagine Harry hitting him and leaving him to be robbed in some back alley.  Mac breaking his jaw is more believable, though I can't imagine why she would.  And the idea of Dean attacking him is laughable.  They used to be the best of friends.

I think Daddy can tell that something upset me, but he's not pushing me to find out what.  George has been following me around the office, no doubt on Daddy's orders.  I sent him for some take away for lunch, just to get some peace.  Karen has also been giving me odd looks.  Of course, she also keeps asking about when I'm going to ask Harry out on a date.  She has some strange ideas.

Tags: daddy, gin, harry, seamus

My head is so full of confusion right now.  I had hoped a full-night's rest would help, but it didn't.  Why would Harry do that?  And to send it anonymously...  It couldn't be a thank you for helping him shop for Gin.  That makes no sense.

Should I thank him?  I told him that Daddy found it for me, I think. 

Should I send the statue?  I bought it specifically for him...  This is making me second guess myself.

Tags: harry
Current Mood: confused

Zabini has taken Gin dancing.  I worry that this will end in disaster in one way or another. 

I still need to buy her a present.  I suppose I should buy Harry one as well, since it looks like they will be back together soon.  What do you get for your best friend's bloke?

Daddy had a nasty cough today.  I insisted that he go straight home and drink ginger tea.

Tags: christmas, daddy, gin, harry, zabini
Current Mood: worried